Work Station

 Assalamualaikum.

Hi! Dah lama sangat dah tak post, today aku just nak post the latest update which is the latest thing aku purchase!

Actually, macam kelakar sikit sebab kawan kawan sebaya aku ada yang dah beli rumah or kereta, eh kereta aku dah ada, my beloved Honda Jazz! Rumah yang belum ada.

Tapi harini aku nak update aku dah beli laptop impian aku sedari zaman uni; tak lain tak bukan Apple Macbook! Actually, purchase ni macam abrupt juga, tiba tiba je rasa nak beli, tapi laptop aku yang sekarang HP tu, button space dia dah tenggelam ditelan bumi dah huhu.. dan pelbagai masalah yang lain.

Jadinya, mungkin dah sampai seru untuk beli laptop baru. Dan mungkin dah sampai seru juga untuk beli Apple Macbook impian aku! Setelah dirisik-risik direnung-renung dari segenap aspek, akhirnya aku decide nak beli Macbook Air M2. Tengok macam-macam video ye kat youtube, daripada segi specification comparison sebab Macbook Air M1 agak interesting juga ditambah lagi dengan harga yang reasonable, jadi macam agak confuse juga.

Akhirnya, last Friday lepas balik kerja berangkatlah aku dan Dzul Alimin pegi Gurney Plaza tujuan ke Switch. Setelah sejam setengah daripada Seberang Jaya, sampai juga ke Gurney Plaza. Penang sememangnya tak besar, yang sampai sejam setengah tu adalah disebabkan trafik jem. Kalau ikut kebiasaan flow laluan tu dengan cara pemanduan Dzul Alimin, sepatutnya less than 45 min dah sampai.

Sesampainya di Gurney Plaza, terus menonong kami berdua pegi ke Switch. Masuk-masuk je memang Macbook Air M2 yang dipamerkan dalam kedai tu seolah-olah memanggil-manggil aku. Promoter Switch yang bertugas malam tu pun terus datang kat aku, aku tanya dia kalau ada Macbook Air M2 yang aku nak tu dalam color space grey. Malangnya, sedih sejuta kali sedih, ternyata dah out of stock, semua colour ada kecuali space grey! Aku memang nak space grey sebab dia grey with purple tint, sedondon lah dengan Iphone 14 Pro Max yang aku beli dalam colour deep purple tu. 

Ceritanya adalah kot setengah jam aku dengan husband aku termenung dalam Switch tu. Promoter tu kata outlet kat Gurney Paragon pun takde colour space grey tu. Yang ada stok hanyalah Macbook Air M1. Aku pun dah berfikir-fikir patut ke aku beli Macbook Air M1 je? Dzul Alimin pula tak support aku beli M1 sebab katanya dah lama sangat keluaran tu berbanding M2. Tak lama lagi M3 nak keluar. Jadi M1 will be quite older version then. 

Dah pening-pening, end up Dzul Alimin ajak pegi makan and chill dulu kejap. Lepas tu dia ajak pegi Sen Heng kat floor atas. Kitorang pun menapak lah naik atas pergi Sen Heng. Aku nampak ada Macbook Air M2 tu kat situ, aku tanya promoter tu kalau ada space gray in stock. Ternyata ADA! Wah excited giler rasa! Promoter tu pun bawa keluar my Macbook Air!

ni macbook display.

My Macbook Air!! Aku beli warranty sekali 1 + 3 years lebih kurang RM600 ++.

Lalu aku pun membeli la Macbook Air aku dengan excitednya. Lepas tu, kitorang singgah Innisfree sekejap kat tingkat bawah untuk beli moisturizer (tujuan asal kenapa kitorang pegi Switch di Gurney Plaza padahal dekat Sunway Carnival pun ada Switch, sebab Gurney Plaza je ada Innisfree). Ceritanya, sekarang memang aku pakai Wardah as skincare rutin aku. Cumanya moisturizer tu tak berapa nak ummph. Jadi awal tahun ni, masa pegi KL aku saja-saja masuk Innisfree nak intai-intai moisturizer dia. Promoter pulak pegi promote Innisfree Black Tea Youth Enhancing Treatment Essence, dan aku pun terpedaya. Tapi terpedaya tak terpedaya sekarang aku dah pakai botol kedua dah. Bagus product dia skin aku jadi healthy glow, brighter, jerawat pun tak senang naik, dan skin aku jadi lembut juga. Then masa aku beli second bottle like 1 month ago, dia bagi trial pack Green Tea Seed Hyaluronic line. Asalnya dia nak bagi Black Tea trial pack (serum, moisturizer and lotion) tapi aku dah try dan tak berapa sesuai, naik jerawat. Maybe sebab ada alcohol.

So, aku pun try la Green Tea moisturizer yang dia bagi tu. Eh eh! Glow gila wei muka aku, nampak licin and flawless! Dah jatuh suka pula dan kena beli. So bertambah la komitmen skincare aku. Daripada moisturizer Wardah RM15 upgrade Innisfree Green Tea cream RM110.

Balik ke topik asal. Aku pun balik membawa Macbook pertama aku!

Dah sampai rumah dan unbox! Huhu nak nangis rasa. Dalam gambar nampak kelabu totok pulak eh. Kalau tengok depan-depan nampak purplish dia tu.

ni baru nak setup. Cantiknya rasa nak nangis lagi!

Then, almost 1 week pastu casing yang aku order dari China pun sampai.

warna light purple. Keyboard cover pun lilac.

setelah dipakaikan laptop cover. Cantik sangat! Crocodile embossed. 

Puas seminggu aku set up all necessary apps dalam Macbook aku. Tiba tiba aku rasa inilah masa yang sesuai untuk set up work station. Adalah cita-cita nak buka satu bilik special untuk work station. Tapi nak buka another room cost dia lagi mahal (set up flooring dan benda-benda lain). So memandangkan bilik tidur kitorang sekarang ni ada ruang lagi untuk letak work desk, kitorang pun decide untuk set up work station dalam bilik je. Senang jugak tak payah keluar pegi bilik lain, boleh stay dalam bilik tidur je.  

So, lasy Friday kitorang pegi Ikea pula untuk beli desk and chair yang sesuai.

ada beberapa choice untuk desk. Kitorang pun nak pilih meja yang sesuai saiz dia untuk dimuatkan di dalam bilik tidur. Pilihan 1.

Pilihan 2. Yang ni serius kecil, memang muat laptop je atas ni. Tapi atas faktor untuk dimuatkan dalam bilik tidur, aku decide nak ambil yang ni.

ni pulak kerusi. Cream colour sedondon dengan meja. 

Hasil tangkapan. Untuk desk tak jadi ambil yang pilihan 2, sebab bila kitorang sampai di rak dan seksyen tempat letak barang-barang ni semua, kitorang ternampak meja yang besar sikit dan harga murah lagi dari pilihan 2. So kitorang ambil yang itu.

Aftermath lepas dan assemble desk and chair. Thanks to Dzul Alimin for helping me assemble all this.

the next day I brought up my white rack from store which is not used. Sebab nak letak buku and printer to complete my work station.

dan ada printer and buku, Actually printer tu pun baru beli. Kitorang ada our old printer tapi bukan wireless, and wire dia pulak aku tak ingat aku campak mana masa pindah haritu. So next day kitorang pegi Queensbay mall ingat nak pegi Daiso je. Sekali termasuk Harvey Norman ternampak wireles printer ni berharga RM259. Murah dah tu for the function. Tapi kitorang decide untuk beli next time je. Then pegi Aeon Queensbay pulak tujuan nak cari bluetooth mouse dan keyboard. Sekali terserempak balik dengan printer yang sama tapi kali ni harga dia RM209. Dua kali terjumpa printer ni and now it s cheaper, so aku decided untuk beli je la huhu. Then actually become lesser jadi RM199. 

ni la rupa bentuk dia. Ada dua colour. Green white and grey white. Of course aku pilih grey white. Dia boleh connect dengan Macbook aku tanpa wire, and also from my Iphone and android Dzul Alimin. Can directly print anything from phone. RM199 for that function I think it's a bargain!

arrangement on my desk. Anyway laptop mini desk tu pun beli kt Ikea. Ada small drawer sekali boleh letak stationary takdelah semak nak letak pencil holder atas meja sejambak kat situ.

isi kandungan drawer tersebut. A lot of cute stationery. Beli kt Ninso premium quite cheap.

Okay I think thats all. I really love my work station. Minimal but function well. 

Bye.

Koleksi terbaru

 Hi everybody

Aku rasa dah lama aku tak update tentang koleksi beg aku. Well I'm busy now since aku kerja. Padahal banyak benda penting yang berlaku sejak aku start kerja huhu

Aku baru beli 2 beg sebab aku rasa aku perlu beli sesuatu demi mengekalkan kewarasan aku masa total lockdown ni. Satu untuk kerja satu untuk jalan jalan.

Untuk kerja aku beli beg Longchamp Le Pliage in small size warna navy. Sekarang aku cover pusat kuarantin covid 19 jawi as medical officer. Sebelum ni aku kat blood bank hsj hopefully aku dapat balik sana asap. Jadi kitorang kerja kat covid centre ni selama 4 hari then cuti 4 hari begitulah seterusnya. Untuk 4 hari bekerja tu kalau kitorang kerja shift siang kitorang akan stay kat hostel dalam 3 mlm mcmtu. Which means aku kena bawa barang untuk stay hostel. Usually aku bawa 2 bag, first bag untuk simpan baju toiletteries tudung undergarment etc, second bag untuk simpan pen, cop, purse, phone, charger etc untuk dibawa ke bilik gerakan.

Along the way aku ada bawa beberapa jenis second bag sebagai percubaan yang mana paling sesuai. First bag consistently aku guna bagpack husband aku yang aku bagi untuk hantaran haritu. Sangat berbaloi k bagpack tu, saiz agak besar, design ala ala korean gitu. Daripada short vacay pegi Cameron Highland sampailah ke pkrc kegunaannya. Okay so first bag bukan masalahnya. Second bag adalah masalahnya. 

Shift kitorang 12jam agak panjang. Kitorang akan buat kerja2 kat bilik gerakan. Semakin lama buat kerja, semakin aku rasa aku perlu bawa lebih banyak barang. Antaranya stokin sebab aku jenis buat kerja bersila atas kerusi dan kaki aku akan kejung disebabkan aircond nan dingin. Then bila shift malam pulak, tetiba rasa perlu untuk bawa thermos mug untuk minum air panas, sebab bila berjaga malam di tempat sejuk selalu rasa perut berangin. Pastu seluar untuk tidur la apa la. Aku end up pakai Longchamp Le Pliage backpack yang aku beli kat Amsterdam 4 tahun lalu. Selepas few days aku guna beg tu, aku rasa beg tu aesthetically pleasing. Suka untuk aku ingatkan material dia adalah nylon, so sangat lightweight ye, seperti tiada jisim. Barang2 essential aku muat dalam tu cumanya dia adalah sejenis bagpack. First bag aku pun bagpack yang saiznya agak besar, pastu nak bawa backpack ni lagi. Berat dan kelakar ya. 

Jadi muncullah idea untuk beli beg Longchamp Le Pliage ( Le pliage= foldable ) versi tote/ long handle. Dia ada juga versi short handle cumanya penuh tangan la nak pegang beg la nak pegang makanan bawa balik hostel la. Mulanya aku beli saiz small in navy. Tapi bila tengok review and mod shot kat pinterest, aku rasa large okay. Aku end up beli large size. Sekali sampai nah, besar sangat rasa, then bila letak benda yang tumpat macam thermos mug, terus melayut sampai ke bawah paras punggung beg tu. BIG NO NO!

Then aku request untuk size exchange through email, then lepas tu, sales associate (SA) tu urus everything la. The best part is, untuk exchange/ return, Longchamp SA akan emel consignment notes untuk kita tampal atas kotak tu untuk kita hantar balik beg tu kat diorang, meaning to say tak payah bayar pun courier, then SA tu akan arrange pick up timing dengan kita untuk orang courier tu datang pick up parcel tu kat rumah/ address yang kita guna untuk shipment. Hebat kan? Like tak perlu bayar extra untuk courier, tak perlu pegi courier office tu untuk hantar parcel tu.

Nampak macam biasa je. Actually look nice in real life. Ringan, spacious, very useful.

Harga dia RM 535. One youtuber ni cakap actually mahal untuk sebuah bag nylon. Agak betul, tapi bila fikir balik how useful it is and how long it can lasts without decaying, actually worth it. Beg ni korang boleh  bawa untuk pegi kerja, pegi kelas, pegi vacation. 

Kalau yang jenis pegi vacation kuat shopping tu, boleh bawa beg ni as extra bag, lipat letak dalam luggage, nanti terlebih shopping and luggage tak muat, boleh keluarkan senjata ini untuk simpan barang shopping tu. Tapi untuk tujuan tu, boleh beli yang large size, more space.

Untuk pegi kerja, aku rasa small size sesuai, sebab actually dah banyak barang dah boleh simpan. Just enough. Plus kalau korang jenis bawa barang tak berapa banyak and korang beli yang large size tu, nampak saggy dan tak cantik. Kalau small, just right je. 

Nanti aku nak share whats in my bag latest version.

Beg jalan2 pun nanti aku share.

Till then.

Love Story

 Hi hello.

That day I ve already posted about my bestfriend turned boyfriend turned fiance. It was a very long story of multiple relationships before I finally found this man I love.

To summarize my first boyfriend when I was in school, broke up with me when I was in Egypt doing medical degree. 

Then bits of liking some boys here and there before I was in platonic relationship with a senior which also studied abroad. Then when I realized I had no future with him because he was really far away and no real date and whatnot, I started to be closed with one of batchmate. Then I ended up my platonic relationship. And started new relationship with this batchmate. This time it was a real relationship cause we're near to each other and real dates were happening. We're together for like 4years, 3years plus short distance and several months ldr. I was happy because I had companion but when we're in ldr, I learnt that I was not really happy but I chose to ignore the red flags. He looked like he was taking care of me but beneath that it s just a pure inferiority complex, overprotective, selfish and abusive act. But I didnt realize because I thought that's how men will be when they're in love. I was wrong and wronged in so many ways. Finally I've decided to end the relationship. 

Then I found this man who I thought I shouldnt have met. We met in PTM an induction program before we started housemanship. I really thought he was my man, as he brought different air in my love story. We went for hiking for one whole night together with his younger brother. Moments happened here and there. And we finally decided we should date. A month later, I figured out an unknown girl tried to request to be a follower on my Instagram but I ignored cause I didn't know her. Actually I did look at her Instagram profile to see if we had mutuals. But nothing. Mainly posted her photos alone with captions she's befriended someone which may be just anyone. Then we continued our relationship. One fine night, I scrolling through his instagram and by instinct I felt like scrolling the girl's instagram and there it was....their photo together. I was like Whutt it wasn't there the last time I checked this girl's account. The next day I actually confronted this girl and introduced myself as his girlfriend. And guess what she introduced herself as his girlfriend too. I was like 'this cunt....' She appeared very calm as if she already knew who was me, but still wanted to do extra efforts (according to her) and I didn't know when was the timeline they started relationship cause as to me, when I was in relationship with him, she was still a friend to him. And to conclude, as much as I hate him, I hate her even more. But that was history.

Thanks to you guys cause finally I've found this man love of my life. Like I said in my previous post, the very first time we encountered I already fell for his charms, but I immediately rushed back to reality. He must be taken. 

Then yada yada, July 31st 2019 we confessed to each other. I initiated that by the way. I shall remember till forever 'Like you more than a friend'. Then we went out for dates like so frequent almost every week. He'll just find time and space for us to spend time together. We planned our off day as well whenever possible. He always fetches me home from work. He's not short tempered, quite funny, romantic, kind soul plus tall and handsome. I've never thought my soulmate will be someone like this. I set my bar way too low before lol

Story cut short, after a flawless period of lovey dovey, we tied an eternal knot on August 16th 2020. We now husband and wife. 

Now we're approaching 11months of happy and wonderful marriage. 

He's now Forensic medical officer whereas I have to be Covid medical officer for time being.

As a husband, he completes my life. He drives me to work, helps me with house chores (washing dishes, laundry etc etc) My only job is to cook. And he also cleans up everything after I cook. The best thing is that he never complains. Even once. Idk maybe this is our honeymoon phase. Lets hope he ll be like this forever.

Next month will be our first anniversary. It will be way more fun if we can cross boundaries sobss, we can go on vacation. 

Till then. Goodbye.

About the man I love

Hi

(Sorry this post has been one year here unposted cause I was so busy and only happened to figure out my password. Enjoy reading)

It's a very long time since then.

My life has been up and down.

Juggling my life with my work as a houseman, and latest with the love of my life.

I think it s not too much if I finally say I've found the love of my life.

After several relationships, ups and downs, starting and breaking up, 

I finally found my man.

He is a tall slim fair man with a pair of big eyes, having protruding jawlines, long neck and obvious adam apple.

 He is totally different from my types before, which is usually not really tall and sometimes not really fair.

He was my colleague during my posting at medical and surgery department.

We barely talked during medical posting. When we're in surgery department working at periphery wards, ICU and ED, then only we become close.

At first, he looks a bit firm and stern and not really a type of socializing person, often seen alone.

Again not my usual type, my type is usually a soft guy, loves to socialize.

Eventually when we saw a lot of cases together, I realize he's a fun guy, make silly jokes, responsible and reliable colleague.

The first time I saw him when I was in corridor clerking case  for the first time.
I was there alone so clueless what to do, I threw my sight around me to see if there's someone I can ask for help. At the end of the corridor, I saw a tall guy with white coat and mask on was also stealing a look at me.
'This guy may know what to do'
And of course he knew, when I asked him, he seemed knowing what I didn't know, and taught me everything.
At some point while he was teaching, I glanced at him. This man is good looking. With his pair of big downward slanting eyes.

'What if he's my soulmate...'
'No la he surely has girlfriend. Guy like this always taken'

Then the rest was history.
We moved to next department; surgical.

'Jom teman aku pegi SOPD'
'Buat apa?'
'OT list'
'Jom'

'Weh lapaq'
'Jom cafe'

'Weh redzone ada case. Jom'
'Jom redzone'

He was always my 'jom' friend.
He taught me a lot of things.
Some sweet moments when we're still friends.
 There was a bleeding patient sent to scope room from redzone for ogds stat.
Hb was about 5. We need to resus him fast. I pumped blood to volume up the patient. And there was him holding that restless patient with left hand while helped me turning the 3-way with his right hand. Enjoyed the moment for a while before Dr Nabil asked him to change his bloody apron.

We always spent time at surgical discharge lounge together, only both of us. Sometimes in light sometimes in dark.

At the end of July 2019, we confessed to each other. 

And get ourselves engaged at the end of January 2020, almost two months engaged now.

Before I be with him, I can see he's a preserve man. He only allows certain people in his life. Only enjoy company of certain people mostly boys. And often seen alone as I said.
When I started to get close to him, I began with opening up my stories I don't usually tell people, my painful memories, and he listened to me attentively. I checked his phone beforehand, I know thats not right, but I need to do what I have to. There's no frequent chats, no frequent calls from same person, so my first thought was he's gay haha
Cause with that package living in Malay neighbourhood, it s almost impossible to be single.
But then I learn he's straight and also single.

Being with him, is amazing as a whole. He's head to toe an honest person, communicates when he feels unpleasant, a loving and caring boyfriend, willing to sacrifice everything for both of us.
We've gone out for dates for only God knows how many times already, and he was the one who picked me up and sent me home everytime. God bless him for that. 

Here's photo of us getting engaged. 

Here's my engagement ring. We actually already surveyed some jewellery store for my engagement ring. Nothing seems suitable. But one day when we went to Queensbay Mall (our favourite mall to spend time), we went to Wah Chan store. And there it is....my engagement ring. White gold checked. Diamond checked. Simple not so huge checked. Price reasonable checked. Actually he wanted to buy me another ring (psst actually more expensive then this one) I turned it down cause I wanted this baby here. 

My engagement dais from Zura Primadona. Actually my friend suggested this bridal boutique to me. 

Basically that s how we started and my small engagement ceremony. 

Till we meet again bye.  

The story of current perfection

Assalamualaikum...Hi!

These past days I've been wandering on internet and somehow browsing through sometime.asia.

I've found this bag I think I'll love.

It is the ESMOON bag!

The half moon shape, though it can stand, the size, the sturdiness, the most exciting part is the colour selection!

Too much colour! Too hard to decide!

And the price tag isn't that hefty.

And....

The most unique part is we can add personalization feature for MYR39...which means you can choose any words in 10 characters with certain punctuation marks like full stop, comma, apostrophe etc.

Fyi, this is pre-order bags which means it isn't readily available and you have to order the bag in order for them to make it available for you.

This Esmoon is made of premium synthetic leather, and also semi-handmade.

At first I want the red wine/maroon colour, then I think it's better for me to buy other colour that suits my upcoming baju raya, which brought me to buy the olive colour. 

Then I asked my sister's opinion whether or not to personalize my bag, she said no cause the name can't be seen from afar unless you come near it and actually read it.

I finally complete the purchase of the Esmoon Olive bag without personalization.

The unusual empty feeling crept on me right after I completed the purchase unlike those excited feeling I usually feel.

Which brought me to email the sometime.asia if I can add personalization feature.

Thank God they accepted my request and asked me to transfer MYR39 to them.

The bag is supposed to arrive on May 4th onward since this is the pre-ordered bag and I purchased it on April 20th.

However, on April 25th, sometime.asia suddenly emailed me the shipping details which means my Esmoon is on its way to me!! I'm so nervous and palpitated I don't understand why.

Probably because it came way earlier, and I wondered if the bag will disappoint me. This is my second time purchasing bags online. The first time was when I bought the Guess sling bag which was a bit frustrating as the shoulder strap is so long, and I just can't simply tebuk extra holes and make the strap remains to be extra long and disturbing aesthetically. 

And I'm so nervous if Esmoon would do the same to me. You better not!

What an intense waiting on April 26th the very next day, as the Poslaju stated that it had been sent out for delivery around 1.58pm and none of  abang Poslaju appeared on my doorstep even until 5.00 freaking pm!

What is this? 

Then, only after 5.30pm the Poslaju popped in front of my door. So late eh you abang, is it that far from P.O Kepala Batas to my house?

Anyway thank you!

even the packaging is so sturdy!

see! None of dents appear on my Esmoon! the material is nice and sturdy and soft almost imitating real leather.

it comes with a dust bag to keep the bag when not in use

the front slit pocket

the back slit pocket is very essential for every bag, cause you don't need to open it to take out things that frequently used such as phone or passport and boarding passes if you're in the airport, or some cards or passes that you need to use often. And back slit is more secure than the one in front.

the inside, another slit pocket and zipped pocket. Overall, so far this bag has good criteria for organization.

the tightly screwed button to adjust the strap

the hardware is of good material, doesn't look cheap

my name!! FAEZAH F. so sentimental to me.

finally, some holes for my pins my sister bought me in Amsterdam! 

it fits fair much things. My 20cm-long purse, a novel-thick medical pocket book, a small note book, some papers, my thin powerbank and cable. I still can put inside my lipstick, my travel face mist and probably my compact powder. 

to pre-housemanship course in Kepala Batas Hospital. I think this is longest strap bag for good function. Longer than this caused instability, hard to carry, and  also need me to actually lift the bag a bit for my hands to reach the bag to take out things from it.

This is definitely an easy bag.

me hanging out with mami. I hope my cheek can supply me energy throughout those hungry housemanship period.

ootd by mami! This is the shortest the strap can go, though the longest isn't that long and can be slung beautifully.

If you need an easy bag, uncomplicated, no extra messy long straps, compact to carry, light-weight, doesn't cost you your kidney, can be personalized, can be used beautifully to occasion like wedding or dinner to rugged activity like jungle trekking, of good material and variety colour, this is the bag you need!

Long story short, Esmoon is so good functionally and aesthetically. 

Check out sometime.asia to purchase!

Till then. Goodbye!

how being rich is always a privilege

Assalamualaikum...Hi!

Some people they don't understand how being rich is a privilege. It's not even a difficult math if you learn their lifestyle and how are their upbringing.

And secondly how education is always important.

Let me elaborate some points that you may or may not know.

Given Ali, a bright kid, who was born into a government worker parents and Danish who is also a bright kid, and was luckily born into a huge corporate persona father and a housewife mother.

Ali was sent into a common kindergarten like everybody else.

Danish instead was sent into a an international kindergarten like every vip's kids.

Ali was surrounded by native Bahasa speakers only. While Danish started to speak English the day he started speaking.

At school where almost every science subjects are in English, Danish understood everything better. 

While Ali always has to look up to dictionary to understand well.

This is the very beginning of the journey, Ali already doubled the effort in order to achieve same outcome as Danish's.

Result's out. Both of them achieve the same.

Long story short, both of them pursue in university. Ali goes with government scholarship. While Danish was funded by his parents. Even if Danish wants scholarship, his father knows someone who shortlists the scholarship applicants.

Even after studying, Ali has to work under others, while Danish can replace his father.

Can you see how being rich is a privilege.

This is my story.

I know being a primary school teacher's child is actually a privilege until I set my foot to secondary school.

Thank God my secondary school aren't the school for rich and VVIP kids, even if there's any, you can count them.

So, I don't really feel the inferiority until I continued my studies in Alexandria University.

If you think the private students are only of those who come from rich family, you need to look back.

After thorough learning, I understand that even the MARA students, are mostly come from rich families or someone who can afford higher quality of life. 

I know that MARA is supposed to help those bright students who can't afford to study abroad without scholarship, but you can't deny because MARA didn't set the maximum family income in order to be sponsored. The most important is the good result.

However if you read the paragraph above, you'll learn that ordinary kids always have to double up their effort in order to achieve the same result as the rich kids'. Still we haven't studied the genetics that if their parents are rich because of their brains, the kids will almost always inherit the brains. 

And that's what I learnt, because if you ask my friends, at least 1/3 of the whole have parents doctor.

And for the remaining even if they're not doctors, they are the people with excellent education background. 

Which almost agree to the theory in which kids almost always inherit parents' intelligence.

Maybe the sample size is narrow, though my sample is precise.

I know some people thought my family knows someone who deal with MARA scholarship, as both my sister and I are sponsored, because there's not much out there, who are sponsored and whose siblings are also sponsored unless their family know somebody.

My parents are primary school teachers and I can guarantee you we know nobody who can secure scholarship quote for us. 

And for that we thank God and are so grateful.

The other stories.

I think I'll choose Vivy Yusof as my example. She was born with silver spoon in her mouth, and also a bright girl. Because I learnt that she took both SPM and A Levels simultaneously and got A's for everything. Very impressive.

I also learnt that she purchased all the luxury stuff she had using her father's substitute credit card.

And finally gathered all knowledge she knows about high end fashion and put it into creative ideas which consequently forming Fashion Valet and Duckscarves. 

If you want to see her struggling like how we ordinary people struggle for things, you're pleased to do so.

But if you want to see how being rich is always a privilege, you may want to proceed.

First, she was blessed to be sent into school with excellent reputation. I know how superior it feels to be in excellent school of district, let alone being in a school like SSP and Seri Cempaka International School. So the self esteem checked!

We all know top school gives top education, which can help you score in exams. And what add to it is intelligence. Top school+top education+intelligence= voila very very educated student!
Congrats you are now an excellent student in academic with high self esteem. Checked!

Her father is hella rich! He could sponsor her to study the A Level in the same year she took SPM, when there's no scholarship for her batch yet, to do A Level and even after the result's out, no one is sent abroad to do the A Level or IB using the sponsorship, except in special case like Dr Amalina Che Bakri who got 17A1 and sponsored by Bank Negara. Hence, I think if there're
 many of us given opportunity to do things like Vivy. Scoring all A's for SPM and the very next year A Level is common things like how commoners the SPM straight A's scorers are among us.

To start up business, when she found out how cruel life is to just graduated degree holders, she mentioned she was using all the savings she and her boyfriend-now-husband had, which were around RM14k, which we know all the savings came from parents. How do you save if you have to buy food on your own, paying for utilities on your own, paying rent on your own? By that time, she lived with her everything-is-ready-parents-house and collected many designer's handbags and apparels and shoes during studying in the UK. Do you really think, fashion and taste can be built up without being exposed to the luxurious brand with top designers? Because people say money can't buy high and expensive taste, but they never realize it does to those who really use money to look up for fashion.

And Vivy was one of them. She used her parents money to look up to high end fashion. Have you ever realized the early-20's Vivy who always donned luxury brands looked like she was in her late 20's to early 30's. Because luxury brands produce and design clothes and bags to those who can afford them, by which those 30's are expected to be the youngest age with good income range to afford those hefty price tags. But Vivy could afford it in her early 20's. And even now, I genuinely don't understand the hype to wear things like Vivy, because all I can see is 'mak cik' style I'm sorry.
If it's not for the branded handbags and shoes and self-branding scarf, and good lighting and angle and good camera, all that left is the makcik going to pasar style. And those who are really into this style is my age and below. However, everyone is entitled to your decision.

I think people now understand how being rich is always a privilege. I don't hate Vivy. In fact, I adore her attitude! She's just an example to the point I brought up today.

Till then. Goodbye!

Reading my old blogpost

Assalamualaikum

Hi

I was reading my old entries before and enjoyed every little story I've written.

To be honest, I think I was calm and funny back then.

Now, I become a still calm and funny + bitter most of the time.

If you read what I always tweet in my twitter, you'll realize I'm such a bitter woman.

Maybe because now I realize life and world isn't always good to us. 

People isn't always good to us.

I believed back then I was going to live happily ever after when I reach certain point in my life,

so I held my head high pushing myself to be stronger and picked up all the shattered pieces of myself reforming them into better me.

The answer is no.

Whatever is happening at that time, is the best. There's no point waiting for something miraculous to happen, and you're responsible for your own happiness.

World and its people aren't responsible for your happiness.

So whatever is happening, indulge yourself in it, if it's exciting, be glad, if it's saddening, be sad, if it's hurt, be painful. Enjoy the feeling comes along with it because one day you will sit down and look at it all, I passed all that!

I thank God for growing up gracefully and strong.

I love reading those moment when I was fragile and hopeless and here I am now living good.

Though the hell part which is housemanship is not yet come but for those life I've been living, I'm proud and contented.

For those lesson I've gotten throughout those years, I'm grateful.

For all the value I've in myself now, I thank my old self for moving forward patiently and brilliantly.

I thank God for being myself.

Thank you Allah.