Assalamualaikum
Hi
I was reading my old entries before and enjoyed every little story I've written.
To be honest, I think I was calm and funny back then.
Now, I become a still calm and funny + bitter most of the time.
If you read what I always tweet in my twitter, you'll realize I'm such a bitter woman.
Maybe because now I realize life and world isn't always good to us.
People isn't always good to us.
I believed back then I was going to live happily ever after when I reach certain point in my life,
so I held my head high pushing myself to be stronger and picked up all the shattered pieces of myself reforming them into better me.
The answer is no.
Whatever is happening at that time, is the best. There's no point waiting for something miraculous to happen, and you're responsible for your own happiness.
World and its people aren't responsible for your happiness.
So whatever is happening, indulge yourself in it, if it's exciting, be glad, if it's saddening, be sad, if it's hurt, be painful. Enjoy the feeling comes along with it because one day you will sit down and look at it all, I passed all that!
I thank God for growing up gracefully and strong.
I love reading those moment when I was fragile and hopeless and here I am now living good.
Though the hell part which is housemanship is not yet come but for those life I've been living, I'm proud and contented.
For those lesson I've gotten throughout those years, I'm grateful.
For all the value I've in myself now, I thank my old self for moving forward patiently and brilliantly.
I thank God for being myself.
Thank you Allah.
