The story of current perfection

Assalamualaikum...Hi!

These past days I've been wandering on internet and somehow browsing through sometime.asia.

I've found this bag I think I'll love.

It is the ESMOON bag!

The half moon shape, though it can stand, the size, the sturdiness, the most exciting part is the colour selection!

Too much colour! Too hard to decide!

And the price tag isn't that hefty.

And....

The most unique part is we can add personalization feature for MYR39...which means you can choose any words in 10 characters with certain punctuation marks like full stop, comma, apostrophe etc.

Fyi, this is pre-order bags which means it isn't readily available and you have to order the bag in order for them to make it available for you.

This Esmoon is made of premium synthetic leather, and also semi-handmade.

At first I want the red wine/maroon colour, then I think it's better for me to buy other colour that suits my upcoming baju raya, which brought me to buy the olive colour. 

Then I asked my sister's opinion whether or not to personalize my bag, she said no cause the name can't be seen from afar unless you come near it and actually read it.

I finally complete the purchase of the Esmoon Olive bag without personalization.

The unusual empty feeling crept on me right after I completed the purchase unlike those excited feeling I usually feel.

Which brought me to email the sometime.asia if I can add personalization feature.

Thank God they accepted my request and asked me to transfer MYR39 to them.

The bag is supposed to arrive on May 4th onward since this is the pre-ordered bag and I purchased it on April 20th.

However, on April 25th, sometime.asia suddenly emailed me the shipping details which means my Esmoon is on its way to me!! I'm so nervous and palpitated I don't understand why.

Probably because it came way earlier, and I wondered if the bag will disappoint me. This is my second time purchasing bags online. The first time was when I bought the Guess sling bag which was a bit frustrating as the shoulder strap is so long, and I just can't simply tebuk extra holes and make the strap remains to be extra long and disturbing aesthetically. 

And I'm so nervous if Esmoon would do the same to me. You better not!

What an intense waiting on April 26th the very next day, as the Poslaju stated that it had been sent out for delivery around 1.58pm and none of  abang Poslaju appeared on my doorstep even until 5.00 freaking pm!

What is this? 

Then, only after 5.30pm the Poslaju popped in front of my door. So late eh you abang, is it that far from P.O Kepala Batas to my house?

Anyway thank you!

even the packaging is so sturdy!

see! None of dents appear on my Esmoon! the material is nice and sturdy and soft almost imitating real leather.

it comes with a dust bag to keep the bag when not in use

the front slit pocket

the back slit pocket is very essential for every bag, cause you don't need to open it to take out things that frequently used such as phone or passport and boarding passes if you're in the airport, or some cards or passes that you need to use often. And back slit is more secure than the one in front.

the inside, another slit pocket and zipped pocket. Overall, so far this bag has good criteria for organization.

the tightly screwed button to adjust the strap

the hardware is of good material, doesn't look cheap

my name!! FAEZAH F. so sentimental to me.

finally, some holes for my pins my sister bought me in Amsterdam! 

it fits fair much things. My 20cm-long purse, a novel-thick medical pocket book, a small note book, some papers, my thin powerbank and cable. I still can put inside my lipstick, my travel face mist and probably my compact powder. 

to pre-housemanship course in Kepala Batas Hospital. I think this is longest strap bag for good function. Longer than this caused instability, hard to carry, and  also need me to actually lift the bag a bit for my hands to reach the bag to take out things from it.

This is definitely an easy bag.

me hanging out with mami. I hope my cheek can supply me energy throughout those hungry housemanship period.

ootd by mami! This is the shortest the strap can go, though the longest isn't that long and can be slung beautifully.

If you need an easy bag, uncomplicated, no extra messy long straps, compact to carry, light-weight, doesn't cost you your kidney, can be personalized, can be used beautifully to occasion like wedding or dinner to rugged activity like jungle trekking, of good material and variety colour, this is the bag you need!

Long story short, Esmoon is so good functionally and aesthetically. 

Check out sometime.asia to purchase!

Till then. Goodbye!

how being rich is always a privilege

Assalamualaikum...Hi!

Some people they don't understand how being rich is a privilege. It's not even a difficult math if you learn their lifestyle and how are their upbringing.

And secondly how education is always important.

Let me elaborate some points that you may or may not know.

Given Ali, a bright kid, who was born into a government worker parents and Danish who is also a bright kid, and was luckily born into a huge corporate persona father and a housewife mother.

Ali was sent into a common kindergarten like everybody else.

Danish instead was sent into a an international kindergarten like every vip's kids.

Ali was surrounded by native Bahasa speakers only. While Danish started to speak English the day he started speaking.

At school where almost every science subjects are in English, Danish understood everything better. 

While Ali always has to look up to dictionary to understand well.

This is the very beginning of the journey, Ali already doubled the effort in order to achieve same outcome as Danish's.

Result's out. Both of them achieve the same.

Long story short, both of them pursue in university. Ali goes with government scholarship. While Danish was funded by his parents. Even if Danish wants scholarship, his father knows someone who shortlists the scholarship applicants.

Even after studying, Ali has to work under others, while Danish can replace his father.

Can you see how being rich is a privilege.

This is my story.

I know being a primary school teacher's child is actually a privilege until I set my foot to secondary school.

Thank God my secondary school aren't the school for rich and VVIP kids, even if there's any, you can count them.

So, I don't really feel the inferiority until I continued my studies in Alexandria University.

If you think the private students are only of those who come from rich family, you need to look back.

After thorough learning, I understand that even the MARA students, are mostly come from rich families or someone who can afford higher quality of life. 

I know that MARA is supposed to help those bright students who can't afford to study abroad without scholarship, but you can't deny because MARA didn't set the maximum family income in order to be sponsored. The most important is the good result.

However if you read the paragraph above, you'll learn that ordinary kids always have to double up their effort in order to achieve the same result as the rich kids'. Still we haven't studied the genetics that if their parents are rich because of their brains, the kids will almost always inherit the brains. 

And that's what I learnt, because if you ask my friends, at least 1/3 of the whole have parents doctor.

And for the remaining even if they're not doctors, they are the people with excellent education background. 

Which almost agree to the theory in which kids almost always inherit parents' intelligence.

Maybe the sample size is narrow, though my sample is precise.

I know some people thought my family knows someone who deal with MARA scholarship, as both my sister and I are sponsored, because there's not much out there, who are sponsored and whose siblings are also sponsored unless their family know somebody.

My parents are primary school teachers and I can guarantee you we know nobody who can secure scholarship quote for us. 

And for that we thank God and are so grateful.

The other stories.

I think I'll choose Vivy Yusof as my example. She was born with silver spoon in her mouth, and also a bright girl. Because I learnt that she took both SPM and A Levels simultaneously and got A's for everything. Very impressive.

I also learnt that she purchased all the luxury stuff she had using her father's substitute credit card.

And finally gathered all knowledge she knows about high end fashion and put it into creative ideas which consequently forming Fashion Valet and Duckscarves. 

If you want to see her struggling like how we ordinary people struggle for things, you're pleased to do so.

But if you want to see how being rich is always a privilege, you may want to proceed.

First, she was blessed to be sent into school with excellent reputation. I know how superior it feels to be in excellent school of district, let alone being in a school like SSP and Seri Cempaka International School. So the self esteem checked!

We all know top school gives top education, which can help you score in exams. And what add to it is intelligence. Top school+top education+intelligence= voila very very educated student!
Congrats you are now an excellent student in academic with high self esteem. Checked!

Her father is hella rich! He could sponsor her to study the A Level in the same year she took SPM, when there's no scholarship for her batch yet, to do A Level and even after the result's out, no one is sent abroad to do the A Level or IB using the sponsorship, except in special case like Dr Amalina Che Bakri who got 17A1 and sponsored by Bank Negara. Hence, I think if there're
 many of us given opportunity to do things like Vivy. Scoring all A's for SPM and the very next year A Level is common things like how commoners the SPM straight A's scorers are among us.

To start up business, when she found out how cruel life is to just graduated degree holders, she mentioned she was using all the savings she and her boyfriend-now-husband had, which were around RM14k, which we know all the savings came from parents. How do you save if you have to buy food on your own, paying for utilities on your own, paying rent on your own? By that time, she lived with her everything-is-ready-parents-house and collected many designer's handbags and apparels and shoes during studying in the UK. Do you really think, fashion and taste can be built up without being exposed to the luxurious brand with top designers? Because people say money can't buy high and expensive taste, but they never realize it does to those who really use money to look up for fashion.

And Vivy was one of them. She used her parents money to look up to high end fashion. Have you ever realized the early-20's Vivy who always donned luxury brands looked like she was in her late 20's to early 30's. Because luxury brands produce and design clothes and bags to those who can afford them, by which those 30's are expected to be the youngest age with good income range to afford those hefty price tags. But Vivy could afford it in her early 20's. And even now, I genuinely don't understand the hype to wear things like Vivy, because all I can see is 'mak cik' style I'm sorry.
If it's not for the branded handbags and shoes and self-branding scarf, and good lighting and angle and good camera, all that left is the makcik going to pasar style. And those who are really into this style is my age and below. However, everyone is entitled to your decision.

I think people now understand how being rich is always a privilege. I don't hate Vivy. In fact, I adore her attitude! She's just an example to the point I brought up today.

Till then. Goodbye!

Reading my old blogpost

Assalamualaikum

Hi

I was reading my old entries before and enjoyed every little story I've written.

To be honest, I think I was calm and funny back then.

Now, I become a still calm and funny + bitter most of the time.

If you read what I always tweet in my twitter, you'll realize I'm such a bitter woman.

Maybe because now I realize life and world isn't always good to us. 

People isn't always good to us.

I believed back then I was going to live happily ever after when I reach certain point in my life,

so I held my head high pushing myself to be stronger and picked up all the shattered pieces of myself reforming them into better me.

The answer is no.

Whatever is happening at that time, is the best. There's no point waiting for something miraculous to happen, and you're responsible for your own happiness.

World and its people aren't responsible for your happiness.

So whatever is happening, indulge yourself in it, if it's exciting, be glad, if it's saddening, be sad, if it's hurt, be painful. Enjoy the feeling comes along with it because one day you will sit down and look at it all, I passed all that!

I thank God for growing up gracefully and strong.

I love reading those moment when I was fragile and hopeless and here I am now living good.

Though the hell part which is housemanship is not yet come but for those life I've been living, I'm proud and contented.

For those lesson I've gotten throughout those years, I'm grateful.

For all the value I've in myself now, I thank my old self for moving forward patiently and brilliantly.

I thank God for being myself.

Thank you Allah.

Eid + Small makeup Haul!

Assalamualaikum

Hi guys!

Happy belated Eid to all of us!

July in Egypt is EXTREMELY HOTT I don't even want to wear pants in my room.

I think Eila had been mentally traumatized to barge into my room only to see me pant-less huhu!

And THANK GOD last Ramadan was not this hot! Otherwise I don't know la what to sayyy

Most of us might be admitted into the ED due to hypovolemic shock+heat stroke, God forbid!

Here are some photos taken during Eid!

who thought we had our photo taken at the same exact spot! I dont know whether that's illusion or angle what not but I actually lost 10kgs within this year and I'm actually glad it happens! I've never thought I got back my pre-Egypt weight.

And that was my first time putting on full face makeup in Egypt in front of my friends!

I'm glad that my makeup skill improved day by day.

So, for more intensive improvement, recently I splurged on some makeup products hihi~

Week after Eid, Dina (wore blue scarf in the photo above,well apart from me) went back to Malaysia, so I asked this kind soul to shop for me. And Thank God, she accepted it and went shopping for me! So baik la this girl, so lucky Wan the Fish to have her in his life!

firstly, I bought Mac Studio Fix Plus, which claims to enhance your eyeshadow colour intensity and can be used as finishing spray as well which leaves your face optimal glow.

My review after using it: Good to enhance the eyeshadow and other stuff you put on your face but NOT that intense, 'macam seadanya jer gitu', as finishing spray, yes it gives your face optimal glow, tak terlalu berlebihan umpama lampu disko, just nice jer, which I like. I'm more to natural makeup look girl.

This is Mac Prep Prime Transparent Finishing Powder. I tried it last night but I didn't go out, so I can't comment on how well it sets my makeup with outdoor environment. Because I think powdery product needs to be tested outside before we can give proper comment bout it.

But in term of finishing function, I think it does its job pretty well, first it brightens my face which neutralizes the oxidized foundation beneath, then it covers pores but not yet the level to amaze me.

I guess my pores are really enlarged because hardly any product can shrink or cover it properly. 

This morning I tried it out but without foundation on because I don't put on foundation on daily basis, just the sunblock. I think it does its job well covering my pores.

Caudalie Beauty Elixir, this is more to skincare than makeup product. But it can be used as setting spray as well. Yes I love face mist that much. I've already owned The Body Shop Vitamin E and Vitamin C face mist, and still I think my face needs this. This thing here is so highly raved, saying that it can glow your face instantly bla bla bla and it's SOOOO GOOOODD.

I sprayed it on last night, and instantly looked at the mirror, okay okay what now? what happen???

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...

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 It seems like nothing happened. Meh~ 

It's freaking RM65 for 30ml and if you asked me yes it's expensive! You can get The Body Shop Vitamin E 100ml for RM49!!

Then I tried it again today, then I see something starts to appear, it's like small detailed things that you have inspect meticulously and thoroughly. Maybe I should wait for few days more before I can say either it doesn't work or it works!

And it smells like grandmother also I don't know.

Moving to this gorgeous Mac Powder Blush in shade Melba. As expected, the colour and formulation are soo nice and suits my skintone. It looks pinkish peach on pan but when you put on your cheek, it looks more natural peachy and just nice. Not overly done.

I think it suits any look you wanna do and any skintone.

This bad boy here, very very bad boy whose name is Tarte Tarteist Pro Amazonian Clay Eyeshadow Palette is ABSOLUTELY AHH-MAZING! 

It contains 16 matte and 4 shimmer eyeshadows and one of the shimmer whose name is Trendy is freaking duo-chrome!

These all are highly pigmented and so soft you wanna cry when you first put your excited nervous finger on it! So soft especially the first column from left.

I put it on of course, no fall-out, and easily blendable (because we don't put single eyeshadow and then we go, instead we put different colours on base, crease, lid, inner canthi, outer canthi, below eyebrow. And these all need to be blended because we don't want harsh line in between)

Like this one I put on before, you might see it looks simple without realizing that it needs at least 4 different shades to make it looks like that. No I'm not showing off huhu. I'm explaining why hiring makeup artist is pricey. The makeup stuff are well known to cost a lot, secondly the skill. Korang takkan pernah tahu berapa kali wajah aku menjadi seakan akan pondan siam sebelum hasilnya tu dapat diterima masyarakat.

Back to the bad boy palette, for those who wants more matte shadows and those who loves light shade shadows like me, and some vibrant colours, this palette is the answer! I've never seen any palette which shades and finishing combos are like this one. And I DONT UNDERSTAND THE BAD REVIEWS THIS PALETTE HAD TO RECEIVE! I might happen to buy the different improvised batch of this palette. So BIG CONGRATULATIONS FOR THE GREATLY IMPROVISED PALETTE! 

People like beauty gurus and youtubers love Too Faced Chocolate Bar Eyeshadow Palette soo much. But as for me, it's good but it contains too much dark colours and so lacks of crease shade.

People like me whose lid space not wide enough doesn't want too much dark eyeshadow, otherwise we look like panda bear.

So yes Tarte Tarteist Pro Amazonian Clay Eyeshadow Palette is DA BOMBB!

Today I had the Tarte Tarteist Pro Amazonian Palette together with the Mac Fix Plus and it accentuated the colour and intensity. 

Overall I'm so happy about the product but my pores are hard to conceal I think it needs foundation with more coverage. 

I think that's enough.

Till we meet again!

Bye Assalamualaikum.

Bags I use the most these days and what's in them!

Assalamualaikum

Hi

Today is Friday and it means a day-off for us in Egypt.

I'm so bored and I decided to post this, which is absolutely not the most important mundane fact and you don't need to know, just for fun!

I'm going to write about the bags I use the most these days and what's inside each of them, those bags I mean here are one for the school and another one for non-school purpose.

Yes my life is that boring nowadays and can only be classified into two freaking days; school days and non school days!

 

this is my school rucksack from Accessorize. Actually I just bought it because my old school bag which is not really it (as my real school bag had its ziplock broken huhu) is a lil small and cannot contain my books.

It has a magnetic flap and drawstring opening, which till now I'm so confused at which one is better whether this type or the ziplock type.

what's inside my school bag??

first and foremost, of course there's a white coat, we can't enter ward without this one, let alone talking to patient. A white coat is compulsory when we encounter the patients.

there're days that we wear this as well, a scrub. We can't simply enter the Operation Theatre with or without operation without wearing one! And cannot watch the operation without the mouth mask. 

Yes we looked like we're leaning leftward, actually we weren't, the one who took the photo held the phone wrongly huhu

next, a note book!

my handwriting during lectures, not that bad is it? :P

what I love about this book is that is has a paper pocket where I can insert my logbook.

the logbook....logpapers to be precised!

blue pen. This is the only stationery in my bag, do you still bring the whole pencil case with you during uni life?

steth. There're probably some hearts we might need to hear!

A handfan! God knows how scorching hot Egypt is in these few months!

A Ray Ban shades. Also to be used outdoor when we go back from class.

I used this Ray Ban aviator shades, I think the size is 55mm.

Praying kit! Now that our classes end up late after Zuhr sometimes even after Asr, I realize that I need this so that I can pray at the hospital.

What's inside the pouch??

firstly, mini wet wipes! This is for the make-up days, I need this to remove the make-up. 

But, don't use wet wipes for removing make-up constantly, use it ONLY during emergency, it's quite impossible to bring the whole Clinique balm jar to school everyday. Choosing a good make up remover is definitely crucial to prevent any unwanted pimples and any allergic reaction.

tissue pack, well tissue is pretty essential for everyone, isn't it?

yes, mouth mask from the OT.

clean socks for praying

sanitary pad! There're sometimes that it doesn't give any signs before just bursting off.

NYX lip soft matte in Stockholm. Such a beautiful peachy nude. And a good formula as well for such a cheap price.

the shade.

that's all in the praying kit

What's left inside my rucksack?

Notes for last Thursday exam.

An apple scarf pin because initially I wore it on the scarf like the normal 'silang' style, and suddenly we got thyroid case which required us to auscultate the bruit ( listen using steth), and of course the 'silang' style isn't convenient to plug in the steth to the ear, hence I just removed the pin and 'pintal' the end of the scarf.

mini zipped pocket inside. Normally I'll put my phone or any cash inside there.

lots of stationary for the Thursday exam, normally I'm good with just one blue pen.

two 50 piasters coin.

cards.

yes. I'm like your grandmother who always needs an ointment because there're too many parts suddenly ache, or there're times when my bowel just bloated.

There're two types of it, this white and the other one which is yellow. The yellow stings more that this.

So, that's all about my school rucksack.

Now we're moving to non-school handbag.

Lately I used this handbag as the others had been deported back to Malaysia last April haha!

this baby here is from Aldo.

what's inside it? Haha messy :P

I use a Ted Baker Rose Gold Aurielle purse. There's a story behind this purse. I bought this in Amsterdam. I've been planning to buy this during my last vacation in January with my sister and planned to purchase it in London precisely, so one day Ted Baker made a year end sale and this purse just vanished from the website, and at the physical store! I was so sad as I really wanted this purse :'(

Then I realized that it wasn't meant for me. So, when we walked around Amsterdam on our last day there just to find the I Amsterdam sign, suddenly I bumped into Ted Baker store AND THE PURSE WAS RIGHT THERE! I was so excited and straight away purchased it! 

That's the not so exciting story about this purse. But, I believe that God plans things in better manner than we ever think of. 

This is how it looks like. CUTE

receipts from shopsss

house key

and a MAC lipstick

this is Cosmo with Amplified finish. Beautiful colour! Actually my MAC lipstick collection is keep growing maybe one day I wanted to blog about the whole collection and the shades as well.

the shade, it's like nude pink very moisturizing!

That's all inside my non school handbag, obviously less things compared to school bag.

Okay I think that's too much already.

Goodbye

Till meet again

Assalamualaikum.