Reading my old blogpost

Assalamualaikum

Hi

I was reading my old entries before and enjoyed every little story I've written.

To be honest, I think I was calm and funny back then.

Now, I become a still calm and funny + bitter most of the time.

If you read what I always tweet in my twitter, you'll realize I'm such a bitter woman.

Maybe because now I realize life and world isn't always good to us. 

People isn't always good to us.

I believed back then I was going to live happily ever after when I reach certain point in my life,

so I held my head high pushing myself to be stronger and picked up all the shattered pieces of myself reforming them into better me.

The answer is no.

Whatever is happening at that time, is the best. There's no point waiting for something miraculous to happen, and you're responsible for your own happiness.

World and its people aren't responsible for your happiness.

So whatever is happening, indulge yourself in it, if it's exciting, be glad, if it's saddening, be sad, if it's hurt, be painful. Enjoy the feeling comes along with it because one day you will sit down and look at it all, I passed all that!

I thank God for growing up gracefully and strong.

I love reading those moment when I was fragile and hopeless and here I am now living good.

Though the hell part which is housemanship is not yet come but for those life I've been living, I'm proud and contented.

For those lesson I've gotten throughout those years, I'm grateful.

For all the value I've in myself now, I thank my old self for moving forward patiently and brilliantly.

I thank God for being myself.

Thank you Allah.

Eid + Small makeup Haul!

Assalamualaikum

Hi guys!

Happy belated Eid to all of us!

July in Egypt is EXTREMELY HOTT I don't even want to wear pants in my room.

I think Eila had been mentally traumatized to barge into my room only to see me pant-less huhu!

And THANK GOD last Ramadan was not this hot! Otherwise I don't know la what to sayyy

Most of us might be admitted into the ED due to hypovolemic shock+heat stroke, God forbid!

Here are some photos taken during Eid!

who thought we had our photo taken at the same exact spot! I dont know whether that's illusion or angle what not but I actually lost 10kgs within this year and I'm actually glad it happens! I've never thought I got back my pre-Egypt weight.

And that was my first time putting on full face makeup in Egypt in front of my friends!

I'm glad that my makeup skill improved day by day.

So, for more intensive improvement, recently I splurged on some makeup products hihi~

Week after Eid, Dina (wore blue scarf in the photo above,well apart from me) went back to Malaysia, so I asked this kind soul to shop for me. And Thank God, she accepted it and went shopping for me! So baik la this girl, so lucky Wan the Fish to have her in his life!

firstly, I bought Mac Studio Fix Plus, which claims to enhance your eyeshadow colour intensity and can be used as finishing spray as well which leaves your face optimal glow.

My review after using it: Good to enhance the eyeshadow and other stuff you put on your face but NOT that intense, 'macam seadanya jer gitu', as finishing spray, yes it gives your face optimal glow, tak terlalu berlebihan umpama lampu disko, just nice jer, which I like. I'm more to natural makeup look girl.

This is Mac Prep Prime Transparent Finishing Powder. I tried it last night but I didn't go out, so I can't comment on how well it sets my makeup with outdoor environment. Because I think powdery product needs to be tested outside before we can give proper comment bout it.

But in term of finishing function, I think it does its job pretty well, first it brightens my face which neutralizes the oxidized foundation beneath, then it covers pores but not yet the level to amaze me.

I guess my pores are really enlarged because hardly any product can shrink or cover it properly. 

This morning I tried it out but without foundation on because I don't put on foundation on daily basis, just the sunblock. I think it does its job well covering my pores.

Caudalie Beauty Elixir, this is more to skincare than makeup product. But it can be used as setting spray as well. Yes I love face mist that much. I've already owned The Body Shop Vitamin E and Vitamin C face mist, and still I think my face needs this. This thing here is so highly raved, saying that it can glow your face instantly bla bla bla and it's SOOOO GOOOODD.

I sprayed it on last night, and instantly looked at the mirror, okay okay what now? what happen???

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 It seems like nothing happened. Meh~ 

It's freaking RM65 for 30ml and if you asked me yes it's expensive! You can get The Body Shop Vitamin E 100ml for RM49!!

Then I tried it again today, then I see something starts to appear, it's like small detailed things that you have inspect meticulously and thoroughly. Maybe I should wait for few days more before I can say either it doesn't work or it works!

And it smells like grandmother also I don't know.

Moving to this gorgeous Mac Powder Blush in shade Melba. As expected, the colour and formulation are soo nice and suits my skintone. It looks pinkish peach on pan but when you put on your cheek, it looks more natural peachy and just nice. Not overly done.

I think it suits any look you wanna do and any skintone.

This bad boy here, very very bad boy whose name is Tarte Tarteist Pro Amazonian Clay Eyeshadow Palette is ABSOLUTELY AHH-MAZING! 

It contains 16 matte and 4 shimmer eyeshadows and one of the shimmer whose name is Trendy is freaking duo-chrome!

These all are highly pigmented and so soft you wanna cry when you first put your excited nervous finger on it! So soft especially the first column from left.

I put it on of course, no fall-out, and easily blendable (because we don't put single eyeshadow and then we go, instead we put different colours on base, crease, lid, inner canthi, outer canthi, below eyebrow. And these all need to be blended because we don't want harsh line in between)

Like this one I put on before, you might see it looks simple without realizing that it needs at least 4 different shades to make it looks like that. No I'm not showing off huhu. I'm explaining why hiring makeup artist is pricey. The makeup stuff are well known to cost a lot, secondly the skill. Korang takkan pernah tahu berapa kali wajah aku menjadi seakan akan pondan siam sebelum hasilnya tu dapat diterima masyarakat.

Back to the bad boy palette, for those who wants more matte shadows and those who loves light shade shadows like me, and some vibrant colours, this palette is the answer! I've never seen any palette which shades and finishing combos are like this one. And I DONT UNDERSTAND THE BAD REVIEWS THIS PALETTE HAD TO RECEIVE! I might happen to buy the different improvised batch of this palette. So BIG CONGRATULATIONS FOR THE GREATLY IMPROVISED PALETTE! 

People like beauty gurus and youtubers love Too Faced Chocolate Bar Eyeshadow Palette soo much. But as for me, it's good but it contains too much dark colours and so lacks of crease shade.

People like me whose lid space not wide enough doesn't want too much dark eyeshadow, otherwise we look like panda bear.

So yes Tarte Tarteist Pro Amazonian Clay Eyeshadow Palette is DA BOMBB!

Today I had the Tarte Tarteist Pro Amazonian Palette together with the Mac Fix Plus and it accentuated the colour and intensity. 

Overall I'm so happy about the product but my pores are hard to conceal I think it needs foundation with more coverage. 

I think that's enough.

Till we meet again!

Bye Assalamualaikum.

Bags I use the most these days and what's in them!

Assalamualaikum

Hi

Today is Friday and it means a day-off for us in Egypt.

I'm so bored and I decided to post this, which is absolutely not the most important mundane fact and you don't need to know, just for fun!

I'm going to write about the bags I use the most these days and what's inside each of them, those bags I mean here are one for the school and another one for non-school purpose.

Yes my life is that boring nowadays and can only be classified into two freaking days; school days and non school days!

 

this is my school rucksack from Accessorize. Actually I just bought it because my old school bag which is not really it (as my real school bag had its ziplock broken huhu) is a lil small and cannot contain my books.

It has a magnetic flap and drawstring opening, which till now I'm so confused at which one is better whether this type or the ziplock type.

what's inside my school bag??

first and foremost, of course there's a white coat, we can't enter ward without this one, let alone talking to patient. A white coat is compulsory when we encounter the patients.

there're days that we wear this as well, a scrub. We can't simply enter the Operation Theatre with or without operation without wearing one! And cannot watch the operation without the mouth mask. 

Yes we looked like we're leaning leftward, actually we weren't, the one who took the photo held the phone wrongly huhu

next, a note book!

my handwriting during lectures, not that bad is it? :P

what I love about this book is that is has a paper pocket where I can insert my logbook.

the logbook....logpapers to be precised!

blue pen. This is the only stationery in my bag, do you still bring the whole pencil case with you during uni life?

steth. There're probably some hearts we might need to hear!

A handfan! God knows how scorching hot Egypt is in these few months!

A Ray Ban shades. Also to be used outdoor when we go back from class.

I used this Ray Ban aviator shades, I think the size is 55mm.

Praying kit! Now that our classes end up late after Zuhr sometimes even after Asr, I realize that I need this so that I can pray at the hospital.

What's inside the pouch??

firstly, mini wet wipes! This is for the make-up days, I need this to remove the make-up. 

But, don't use wet wipes for removing make-up constantly, use it ONLY during emergency, it's quite impossible to bring the whole Clinique balm jar to school everyday. Choosing a good make up remover is definitely crucial to prevent any unwanted pimples and any allergic reaction.

tissue pack, well tissue is pretty essential for everyone, isn't it?

yes, mouth mask from the OT.

clean socks for praying

sanitary pad! There're sometimes that it doesn't give any signs before just bursting off.

NYX lip soft matte in Stockholm. Such a beautiful peachy nude. And a good formula as well for such a cheap price.

the shade.

that's all in the praying kit

What's left inside my rucksack?

Notes for last Thursday exam.

An apple scarf pin because initially I wore it on the scarf like the normal 'silang' style, and suddenly we got thyroid case which required us to auscultate the bruit ( listen using steth), and of course the 'silang' style isn't convenient to plug in the steth to the ear, hence I just removed the pin and 'pintal' the end of the scarf.

mini zipped pocket inside. Normally I'll put my phone or any cash inside there.

lots of stationary for the Thursday exam, normally I'm good with just one blue pen.

two 50 piasters coin.

cards.

yes. I'm like your grandmother who always needs an ointment because there're too many parts suddenly ache, or there're times when my bowel just bloated.

There're two types of it, this white and the other one which is yellow. The yellow stings more that this.

So, that's all about my school rucksack.

Now we're moving to non-school handbag.

Lately I used this handbag as the others had been deported back to Malaysia last April haha!

this baby here is from Aldo.

what's inside it? Haha messy :P

I use a Ted Baker Rose Gold Aurielle purse. There's a story behind this purse. I bought this in Amsterdam. I've been planning to buy this during my last vacation in January with my sister and planned to purchase it in London precisely, so one day Ted Baker made a year end sale and this purse just vanished from the website, and at the physical store! I was so sad as I really wanted this purse :'(

Then I realized that it wasn't meant for me. So, when we walked around Amsterdam on our last day there just to find the I Amsterdam sign, suddenly I bumped into Ted Baker store AND THE PURSE WAS RIGHT THERE! I was so excited and straight away purchased it! 

That's the not so exciting story about this purse. But, I believe that God plans things in better manner than we ever think of. 

This is how it looks like. CUTE

receipts from shopsss

house key

and a MAC lipstick

this is Cosmo with Amplified finish. Beautiful colour! Actually my MAC lipstick collection is keep growing maybe one day I wanted to blog about the whole collection and the shades as well.

the shade, it's like nude pink very moisturizing!

That's all inside my non school handbag, obviously less things compared to school bag.

Okay I think that's too much already.

Goodbye

Till meet again

Assalamualaikum.